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Steven Trolland at Soulfully Embraced

Even being a shy guy this is for you as promised in honour to an amazing lady that called herself my second mum played at her"

Many may think that because I stand in front of large audiences that I am confident guy.

In fact I have always been a shy person all my life, and to sing and play the guitar especially on such an occasion my stomach was churning.

Even as a child at school I put on a brave face to try and be somebody, but the difference back then is that I always had the question, who am I?

And in trying to be somebody I often got up to no good and in trouble.

Now after time and learning to listening to my soul, yes I know who I/we are which is so much more than just the physical body, but it is still in my nature to be quite shy, especially when it comes to playing my guitar and singing which is usually behind doors and even then I often put the guitar straight back down again. But in honour of an incredible lady this wasn't about me, just like in a demonstration or a private reading I have to relax my wants' and needs because the less I make it about me, the more it becomes about those that love you in the spirit world, and this was no different and I guess is what made it work on this beautiful ladies day.

So in honour "may the spirit world be richer now". x

For many years we would go through to stay there by the sea and boy she knows how to have a good time out at the bar dancing away and also many of the times she was the last one standing and still dancing away puting all us young ones to shame.

She always spoilt us with her cooking and going out for meals and she certainly knew how to show her love that are close to her.

It was one year way back and guessing could even twenty years ago or more is when I came back to the place where everyone was staying is when she walked in and heard me playing this song on my forends guitar and it was then she decided that she wanted me to play it on the day celebrating her life. Whenever I pick up my guitar now and when playing a different song I feel her close and with the feeling of her saying "play this song" so I certainly do and knowing if my voice isn't the best at the time she still appreciates my effort, love and respect for her.

Many years ago I had not a bad voice but certainly not professional, and to cut a long story short I have suffered big changes in my lungs and throat that are still under investigation.

Basically my voice can change all the time to where I also lose much of it and even now, much of the time can't properly clear it.

So when this amazing lady sadly to us passed away and made the spirit world a richer place, I couldn't not try for her and also for my best friend who's mum it is.

So I spent a long time remembering how to play and I made this recording encase I needed to play it instead of singing encase my voice wouldn't allow me on the day.

The thought of actually singing and playing the guitar in front of people or not being able to fulfill her wishes, I felt the expectations were high and all I wanted was to fulfill her wish as I know she would be listening in and a part of her day honouring her.

But through my high emotions on the day and my hands shaking I could say although not my best performance that I did it, and all that I wish for and my biggest hope is that I did her proud.

And I hope that you like this too!

It was recorded using a bluetooth device I put round my neck with a mic on it bluetoothed to my phone. :-)



The truth is the spirit world isn't a place. It is only a different perception of awareness.

An experience I had at the earlier stages of my unfoldment, was one time I was sitting listening to Glyn Edwards “Sitting in the power” then when it ended, I felt an urge to put on a track in the CD “Healing the wounded Soul” By Tony Stockwell, This track was about meeting your loved one. As soon as the track started Tony’s voice fell away like it was in the next room and all I could feel was the love of my brother starting to bond and embrace me.

But what I am trying to explain here, is that there are no physical words that can possibly match to truly explain this experience. This was a communion beyond the physical perception.

As my brother came so close, a lifetime of hugs couldn’t even come close possibly express the oneness and experience within this moment.

My breath was his breath as his was mine, his tears were my tears as his mine and his soul so closely bonded with mine as mine his.

In this life we speak to each other with a physical voice to communicate, but no words were needed, this was beyond a lifetime of hugs and beyond needing to hear a voice for a conversation. Everything that could ever be needed was right there within that very moment, and when I say oneness, that word is far to small, and even the word love is too small, and I believe this is because we will naturally try to embrace that word in within our thoughts and compare it to those we love so dear.

But this experience felt beyond how we even express thought, where no thought was needed. Everything that could ever be needed was right there in that moment.

It wasn’t until after a wee while of just being, was then when my brother started to withdraw and then this was when the expression of thought came from one mind to another, meaning from his to mine. I saw a image of my sister, my nephew, a rubber duck and then football on the T.V. I knew my sister was open to this so she wouldn’t think I was mad. So I sent her a message of my experience and then for her to get back saying that my nephew just finished playing with his favourite rubber duck in the bath and now he is sitting watching football with his dad.

Many have thought that it was good getting that information about my nephew. And it was great for my sister and for my brother to say he was there with them, and certainly not devaluing this, but it couldn’t even come close to touching or skiff the surface of the moment that I had with my beloved brother in the spirit world previous to that.

So can you imagine what it is like to have a hug soul to soul from those you love in the spirit world? What it could be like for them when they are met by those they have missed so dear? And one day when it is our time to take that step beyond the physical senses, how we will be met by those that love us?

We each have a beauty, a quality so unique because there is no one else in this world that is you, but also that has already imprinted so deep into the hearts of those we love, in both worlds here and now, and where no words are needed. This is because we are also a living spirit, a beautiful soul that has a presence so dear. Actually, This is your presence, that expresses itself through you!

Let it be beautiful, let it touch where no words are needed, and someday whether it be in this life or the next, you will also learn the totality of your own beauty with those you love and touched, and what that beauty can perceive the world to be, and present to you the wonders of the life itself.

“Let your presence be your beauty. Let your love be your truth and let your soul be the voice”

My best wishes as always,

Steven x

  • Writer's pictureBy Steven Trolland

Let your presence be your beauty, let your love be your truth and ler your soul be the voice

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